No one expects to go through or be faced with infertility. It came as a huge shock to me that we were diagnosed with unexplained infertility. What? Why? Infertility shouldn’t be happening to us. With each IVF failure, I started to feel as though the doctors were putting limits on me. Limiting my hope, limiting my procedures, limiting my expectations, limiting our conversations.
It’s easy to feel defeated. I felt like a big fat loser after each IVF failure. Why could I not make this happen? My numbers are above average for my age, my husband’s numbers are twice what is required. I have done every test or so I think to rule out any issues. I have done genetic testing, immune testing, PGS testing, HSG, hysteroscopy twice, doppler, trial transfers, a million sperm analysis’s WHAT’S THE PROBLEM? We make five-day blastocysts, and even normal PGS tested embryos. What am I missing?
I decided that no one in this infertility industry (Yes, it’s an industry and sadly not regulated by insurance and mostly about money) is going to limit me.
If you have been following me from the beginning, you know that I pick out nail polish colors solely because of their names. I have been doing this for years, and it becomes my personal mantra for the week. I found “Girl Without Limits” by OPI. It’s in the pink family which is my favorite color and makes me feel so happy seeing it on my nails. As a beauty guru, I turn to fashion and beauty a lot to get me through infertility (DVF retail therapy was my favorite).
I loved this photo shoot I recently shot with the vintage car. It’s about moving forward with your journey, getting messy, putting the top down throwing your hands in the air and screaming, being free and not being limited by your infertility title.
My infertility journey has forever changed me; it has shown me that I have the power to control my mind, to fight for what I think is right for my body and the desire to help other women going through infertility. There are no limits. You are the only one that puts limits on your life. PERIOD.
The video below was requested by one of my YouTube subscribers. I share my tips on how to keep moving forward and how to keep your infertility life positive.
Photography by: Rick Gomez Photography
Top: Ralph Lauren | Jeans: Banana Republic | Bracelets: Keep Collective